I finally got around to taking belly shots again. I really meant to do a better job of recording my belly growth each week again. Unfortunately, the lighting in our current bedroom is not nearly as nice as at the condo, so I haven’t been as good at documenting.
Another anniversary of sorts
One year ago today, we found out that we were finally expecting a baby. I still remember that moment like it was yesterday . . . I had suspected I was pregnant (perhaps the positive home pregnancy test was a giveaway?) but we were so afraid to believe it was for real this time. I had gone in for a blood pregnancy test, and my beta was delivered to me by my nurse with a phone call. I was standing at the bottom of my stairs, and Elliot was upstairs. I answered the phone, and I remember Mary asking me how I was feeling, and all I could think was “I don’t know, you tell me.” She finally said “How about we call you momma” and I started bawling. I called to Elliot, and he came to the stairs, and we just sat there, crying and hugging each other. I learned that my beta was pretty darn high, so they thought I had a nice healthy bean growing.
What a roller coaster this last year has been – and wonderful. I can’t believe how much has changed in my life, and I’m so thankful for everything that has happened. I’m also amazed that we are even thinking about going through this process all again. The thought terrifies me – getting back on that emotional roller coaster is going to be tough.
Let the Worrying Begin!
Why is it that every time I sneeze, I worry that I will either sneeze the baby out or crush it? Such a silly thought . . . but it has been plaguing me since I began waiting to find out if I was pregnant (and of course I spent most of the wait sick, coughing, and sneezing). I wonder if sneezing will ever become less worrisome?
So this morning I woke up early because I had to go to the bathroom. It seems I can’t go more than a few hours without peeing! I walked the dog, and by the time I came back, I was completely nauseated . . . I was SURE I was going to throw up. I think I’m going to have quite a run with morning sickness. Luckily, I got some food in my system, and I am feeling better now.
You would think feeling better is good news, right? Wrong!! Today, I’m not nearly as sore and crampy as yesterday, and my breasts are really not nearly as tender as they have been . . . so of course, I’m worried! Funny how every little thing makes me worry that something is wrong. I hope this feeling subsides after the next two blood tests and the ultrasound.
I was on the phone with my mother a little earlier. She asked if there was anything interesting going on, and I wanted to shout, “I’M PREGNANT!!!” I hope she doesn’t guess anything until we tell them next week. So far, I have managed to keep it fairly quiet, but I did spill the beans to the dog. I have to say, she did not seem particularly interested, though, and was more concerned that I was delaying feeding her because of this news.
Elliot & I are having trouble agreeing on who we should tell and when. Neither one of us wants to tell anyone before the first ultrasound. I would like to share with my parents, brother, and sister-in-law once we see a heartbeat on the ultrasound. Elliot, however, is so superstitious – he keeps asking if we can wait to tell everyone until after the baby is born!! I told him he should decide when we tell his family, and I’ll decide about mine and we’ll wait for everyone else until after the first trimester.
Still Can’t Believe It Is True!
So . . . today I’m 4 weeks 5 days pregnant. My due date is December 29, 2008. I can’t believe it is still true! I woke up again and took my last home pregnancy test (still positive) and I tried out the new First Response Digital Gold test just so I could see the “+YES.” Now I have to try and relax and believe it will all be okay. I want this so much . . . I’m just so excited and hope this little baby sticks!
Last night I went to my friend Niki’s house to finish decorating cookies for a fundraiser. I was cramping and so sore, but I didn’t want to give her any sense that I might be pregnant. I sure hope all the cramping is normal! I’m DYING to tell my parents, but Elliot & I agreed to wait until after the first ultrasound on May 6. I’m thinking of telling them on Mother’s Day and giving them a “pregnancy belly” cake that says something like Expecting new arrival on 12/29. Elliot is worried other people will see, so I have some convincing to do.
I just hope my betas double on Monday and Wednesday and that we see a heartbeat on May 6!
Stunned and Crying
I’m stunned . . . . . . . . shocked, and crying. I just truly can’t believe it. I finally got a call from the nurse’s office, and my beta is . . . . . . . . .
Elliot & I were crying . . . we just can’t believe this might finally be happening!